My Breast Cancer Story, Eleven Years Later...here I go again.

And  here we go again. Really? Really?!!! My biggest fear has come true. After eleven years of looking over my shoulder this stupid cancer has come back. I'm more pissed off than scared. Every year I was cancer free, I would announce to anyone that would listen, "it's been five years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, it's been ten years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer" I just reached eleven years in August of 2017 and said with pride, "it's been eleven years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer" This sucks! I am devastated. I just don't want to go through this again. I know what I'm in for......

I didn't fall of the face of the earth I really didn't!! I have just been doing the same old stuff....babysitting, babysitting and more babysitting!! Little Jeffrey is getting so big. He is talking so good now and is the sweetest boy EVER!! He really has me wrapped around his finger. So what's been going on other than babysitting? I had my 3 month checkup with my oncologist. I have a "nodule" on my right breast. I have to go June 5th for the usual workup. Mammogram, ultrasound, and breast MRI. From there they will let me know if I have to have a biopsy. I guess I will never have a time in my life when I don't have to worry about breast cancer not creeping back up on me. I just celebrated my 46th birthday. I had a nice day with my family. My daughter Megan bought new cushions for my patio set. Jeff and Bonnie gave me a gift card and I went and bought an anti gravity lawn chair. It's the best chair EVER!! I am really going to enjoy it when we go camping in J...

I can't believe I haven't been on my blog in so long. The days go by so fast and I have been so busy. So much has gone I on don't even know where to start. My mom had a second surgery on her knee. She is doing ok but has been in a lot of pain. She has therapy and the guy has been bending it 100%. I know she is just really bored with being stuck in the house. She is starting to get out more a little here and there though. My computer crashed and I lost all my pictures!! I was a little upset but I'm over it now. Most of them were my vacations pictures. I saved a lot of the pictures of the baby and my kids stuff but I never got around to saving my folder and then CRASH!!! Oh well, life goes on..It's weird how you change after something like cancer...when things like my computer crashing happens it just doesn't feel like the end of the world anymore. lol Megan went on Spring Break to Florida and I was a nervous wreck! I tracked her plane all the way there. I called ...

I have been missing in action here for a while. My mom is doing pretty good. She is on her third cast now. I think she is just really getting bored with being stuck in the house all the time. We have been going over to see her a lot. The other night we all went over and played poker. Wednesday I we over to have lunch with Mom, Pam, Sue and Megan. We played bingo and Pam even bought prizes. It was so fun. We are just trying to keep her busy because she is a little stir crazy. She will be getting the cast off soon and they will put a softer cast on that will help her gradually bend her knee. Then she has to go in and have the wire taken out that they put in when she had surgery. Her knee still looks awful. Sue took pictures of it when they did the cast change and she has 15 staples and it is still very swollen. I just can't believe she is going through this. I have been on a diet for 3 weeks. So far I've lost 8 pounds! I just cut out all the junk food and snacking at night. I am ...

My mom had her surgery today and everything went good. They said that they will be getting her up tomorrow to move around a little. I couldn't be at the hospital today because last night around 9:00 my stomach started feeling weird. By 11:00 I had a full blown stomach virus. I was so sick and all I could think about was my mom's surgery and how I had to be there. Megan took great care of me, but I was so bad that I almost passed out. I was up every half hour until about 7:00 this morning running to the bathroom. It was not good. I finally remembered that I had some compazine left from when I was having chemotherapy. It helps with the upset stomach. I took that and went to bed all day. I am still feeling crappy but mostly tired. I am just happy that my mom's surgery went good. I talked to her on the phone and she sounded good. I am off to bed so I can rest up and see her tomorrow. My head is still really fuzzy.

The Orthopedic Surgeon came in and said he would be doing the surgery tomorrow. He said it was an odd break so he will have to put a wire around it. He will also have to put some pins in. He also said the tendon will have to be repaired. He told my mom the worst part of the surgery will be 8 weeks in a cast from her thigh to her foot. She is doing better now because they are managing the pain. As long as she doesn't move it's ok but if they come in and try to move her leg she feels it. I brushed against her foot and it really hurt her. I got the heebie geebies..lol. Thanks for all your good thoughts and prayers. I appreciate it so much.

I just got a call from my mom and they are not doing the surgery today. I am headed up there now to see what's going on.

Just a quick entry to let everyone know that my mom stepped in a pothole in a parking lot coming out of Bingo! She broke her knee cap in two places and tore the tendon under her knee. She will be having surgery today. She is in a lot of pain but I think the pain meds are finally kicking in. When I got to the hospital and saw her knee I could not believe it. It looked like the size of a grapefruit! Please keep her in your prayers tomorrow. I know that the surgery should go well but I know that she is scared. I will update when I get back from the hospital later today.

Here are some pictures of baby Jeffrey. I love the one of him looking at the tree! I framed it for my mom and for Jeff's dad for Christmas. I haven't been on in a long time. I have been so busy with Christmas and doing stuff on Ebay. We had a wonderful Christmas and it was so much fun watching Jeffrey open his presents. He loves all his toys and hasn't stopped playing since Christmas. I had a great day with my family. We went to Pam's to open presents with the family and then had a wonderful dinner. I drank an Irish coffee that day and about a half bottle of wine. By the time I got to my in laws I was pretty much wasted...lol. I had so much fun and got to catch up with everyone. It was a great day! I had a little scare right before Christmas. I went for my three month check up and I told the doctor that I have been getting muscle spasm and cramping in my chest and rib cage. I also have some pain on the right side of my abdomen. He was as he put it very concerned. When h...

I have some good news about my sister Sue. She had the MRI on her brain and the doctor called today and told her it is a benign cyst and that they will check it again in 6 months. Thank god! I was really scared that it was going to be something bad. Thanks for all the prayers for my sister. I have been getting ready for Thanksgiving. I realized I forgot a few things so off to the store I went. It was a madhouse! People standing over the frozen turkey bin trying to figure out what size bird they wanted. There were a lot of men on cell phones with confused looks on their faces. The funniest thing I saw was two guys looking at spices with blank looks on their faces. One if the guys asked his friend what they were supposed to use on the turkey and he said he was looking it up on google. Who knew there would be a day you could google from your phone in the grocery store. I was going to step in and help but who knows better than google right? lol Tomorrow will be a busy day. I am making cher...

Geeesh. I am a bad blogger. I have not been on in a while. One of the reasons I wanted to post today is to ask everyone for prayers. My sister Sue has been having trouble - headaches, tingling on the left side of my her head, numbness by her temple, some minor vision problems, high blood pressure, and disoriented. Well she had a CAT scan and they did find something. They said it was about 1/4 inch spot that showed up. We aren't sure what it is but they want to do an MRI on Monday. This is freaking me out! She tells me not to worry but how can I not worry about something like this? Please keep her in your prayers. I was pleasantly surprised to sign on today and find that Sugar from The Sugar Shack Passed the Marie Antoinette award: Real Blogs - Real People on to me! Sugar thank you so much I am honored! You are so sweet and it means a lot to me. Now it is my turn to pick some of my friends blog to pass it on to. First is Stephanie from Freshly Squeezed . She is also a breast cancer...

Here are some pictures from our trip. A lot has gone on since my last post. We took a trip up north to look at the colors. It was so beautiful. We left early Saturday morning and then stayed the night in Tawas Michigan. For the most part we missed the peak color, but the trip was still nice and we did see some nice color. We had a great time and it was nice to get away just the two of us. We stopped at Frankemuth on the way home and then we stopped at the famous "Tony's" to get something to eat. My dad always took us there on the way home from up north. They give you so much food. Jeff blew his diet for one day but it was worth it. There is a picture of the BLT we ordered above. It had more than a pound of bacon on it and it was gooood! We have been working at the haunted house for the little league. We did it every Friday, Saturday and Sunday for about 4 weeks. We have so much fun scaring people and laugh so hard when we get "screamers" that come through. My si...

I have been going coupon crazy the last week or two. Sue has been my partner in crime. We hit all the stores that have the deals that match up to the coupon and we are saving a ton of money. The other day I bought 12 bags of Recees and KitKats for Halloween and 4 big bottles of Tylenol for about 20 bucks. Today we went to Super K and they had double up to $2.00 and I stocked up on shampoo, hair color, and lots of other things. Some of the stuff was even free after the coupon. It is well worth the hunt! I am stocking up on everything. Jeff and I decided to go away this weekend and do our own fall color tour up north. I am excited to just get away and look at all the beautiful scenery. Oh and I am sure we will be bringing the game we always play...it's called UpWords. We are in a major battle. Whoever loses has to keep score the next game. I was on a winning streak for a while, but he won the last 10 games in a row..that was until the other day when we went to the beach and I fina...

Ok I did it. I transferred my journal over from AOL. They made it really easy too. They did say my pictures would transfer but I don't think they did. Maybe when I am bored I will add some of the pictures that went with the posts. OK an update on me. I am doing really good. I am a little bit lazy though I have to admit. I used to be such a go getter and now I dread doing simple tasks. I think I had more energy when I was going through treatment! lol. I think it's just being home all day and not working. When I worked I had a reason to get dressed and get out of the house. I started to do eBay again. I have three things on and already have bids on 2 of them. We want to buy a new camper so that's what I am working towards so I better get going on that!! Little Jeffrey is so cute. He is getting so smart too. I love watching him and he is such a good boy. His favorite thing in his toy box is his little books. I will be at the computer typing away and he will swing the chair ove...

Ok. This is going to be a learning experience. AOL journals was so easy that I could do an entry with my eyes closed. I was in a total panic today when I found out they were shutting down. I saved every journal entry I every made along with the comments and I am going to print it out just to be safe. (I think I better go buy more ink) lol. I think aol is going to try and transfer all my entries here. We'll see if that happens..lol. The part that gets me is all the pictures I had to go along with my entries. I don't think they will be able to move those here too. Oh well. I'll write more later I just wanted to test this out and get the link out there to everyone. The next couple posts might just be some experimental posts to see my way around. See you soon!

OMG! I found out today that AOL will be closing all journals. I am looking for a new place to go. I spent all day saving my journal onto my hard drive along with all the comments. When I find a new place to write I will let everyone know with an email. If you still want to get my journal please email me at gosso23@aol.com and put in the subject line..YOUR JOURNAL and I will send you the link when I get it up and running. I am just running into a few snags. I am so sad. I loved it here. : (   I know I haven't done an entry in a while but I have been so busy this summer. Take care everyone. Trish  

I haven’t written in my journal in so long! There is so much to talk about. I have been spending my summer babysitting and going to the beach! We went camping for 10 days and had so much fun. It was Jeff and I, Pam and Mike, Sue, Steve and Brad. Brian and Kaitlyn were there a couple days and so where Chris and Erin with the kids.  It was so relaxing and refreshing.  We rode our bikes everyday to see the sunset on Lake Michigan.  We ate until we couldn’t eat anymore. And we played jokes on each other because it’s a camping tradition.  Last Christmas, Jeff kidnapped two of Pam’s turtles off of her porch. We took pictures of the turtles doing random stuff with us and then while we were camping we gave them the turtles back with a photo album of their adventures with us…it was so funny. Pam and Mike played all kinds of jokes on everyone.  Jeff always says how he has a black cloud following him around so they made a giant black cloud and hung it at out campsite. It ...

We have a big weekend ahead. The Relay is Saturday and I plan on staying there fro m 7 a. m . Saturday until 10 a. m . Sunday!  I made all the lumanaria bags and they look so nice. We are having a fresh squeezed lemonade stand this year. The stand turned out so cool! I even thought of a slogan for it. "When life gives you cancer, make lemonade!" Sue painted it on the front of the stand and she did a great job. One problem we ran into was the cost of lemons. Sue went to the grocery store to check it out and lemons were 8 for  5 dollars!  I called around and found a wholesale produce company and they gave us a great deal. He was so nice and by the time we left he donated  2 cases! We got a megaphone for Jeff and he is going to round up customers.  He is so funny so this should be good.  I think my husband is falling apart! When I took him to the doctor for the Bell's Palsy we found out he has high b lood pressure. He has been on medic a ti...

                           WOW!! I haven’t been on my journal in a while. Jeff is feeling much better and his face is back to normal. What a weird thing to happen to him. I’m just glad he is back to himself because he was very self conscious.  His dizziness is gone too.  He hard a hard time with that especially at work.  Thank goodness he's better. I went for some blood work after taking thyroid pills for a month and the doctor said my thyroid is still functioning very low so I have to take the pills for a couple more months and we will see what’s happening.  I have lost about 5 pounds though even with my thyroid out of whack!  I still have about 20 lbs. to go to get back to the weight I was before cancer. I call it my B.C. weight.  lol I also went for a breast MRI Thursday. . It wasn’t nearly as bad as the previous two that ...

We just found out that Jeff has Bell’s Palsy. The right side of his face is paralyzed. He can’t blink one of his eyes and his speech is slurred. This all started when he went to the dentist. He went for a cleaning and they said that he needed some work done under a crown. He went and had the work done and was doing ok until about 4 days later. He started having severe pain in his jaw. It hurt so bad that he didn’t sleep that Saturday and into Sunday. He was awake for 24 hours in PAIN! I called the dentists emergency number and he called a pain killer and antibiotics in to my pharmacy and said he wanted to see him at 9:30 the next morning. Jeff stayed up all night again because the pain medicine didn’t work. By the time we got to the dentist he was pretty bad. They did X-rays and found nothing wrong so they gave him a shot and sent him home and told him to come back if the shot wears off and there is still pain. He finally got some sleep and woke up a little before 5:00 and was in pain...