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Here we go again

And  here we go again. Really? Really?!!! My biggest fear has come true. After eleven years of looking over my shoulder this stupid cancer has come back. I'm more pissed off than scared. Every year I was cancer free, I would announce to anyone that would listen, "it's been five years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, it's been ten years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer" I just reached eleven years in August of 2017 and said with pride, "it's been eleven years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer" This sucks!
I am devastated. I just don't want to go through this again. I know what I'm in for......

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Linda said…
Trish I am so very sorry to hear this news! I will be saying prayers for you and you are in my thoughts. Linda
Trish said…
Thank you Linda. It's been a long time! I hope you're doing well. I am friends with some of the girls from here on Facebook. I will try and update the blog in a few daya. I just haven't had the passion o did 11 years ago. Take care!
jfe2 said…
You kicked it's ass twice! I love you!

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