I had a really nice Christmas. I felt really good. My mom on the other hand said every bone in her body hurt that day and that she prayed at church to take my pain away. Unfortunately for her it worked. We had such a nice family Christmas. We played games and had a really nice dinner. The only problem I had on Christmas was mouth sores and my throat hurt. When I woke up the next morning my voice was gone, and it still is. It is coming back slowly.
I went for my lab work on Wednesday and my white count was at zero. My ly, mo, gr, ly#, mo#, and my gr# didn’t even register. (I don’t even know what those are but they seemed pretty concerned). They put me on antibiotics and I have to do the “stupid shot” as I now call it. I hate doing it! It doesn’t really hurt too bad anymore, just burns when the medicine is pushed in, but I just hate poking that needle into my stomach. Last night I actually prayed to my sister Sharon to help me find the courage to just do it after I kept putting it off. But I did it. And I just did it again!
I have literally been on the couch for 3 days straight. I am just exhausted. My sister Pam came over on Thursday and she is like the white tornado. She came armed with an industrial size box of garbage bags and 5 organizing bins! She went down in my basement (that I have been complaining about) and went to work. I didn’t see her for 3 hours! She did all my laundry, Then she came upstairs and scrubbed my bathroom. I just can’t thank her enough. I have not done any deep cleaning in so long.
I was talking to my sister Sue on the phone the other day and told her I was craving Reese’s Puffs cereal. It was kind of late. Next thing you know she is at my door with a box of Reese’s Puffs! I am getting way too spoiled. I may not recover from it when this cancer thing is over!! I love my sisters so much. They are always there for me.
Pam took me to Target and I had a minnie breakdown in the store. I was just so tired and I could not even shop and it was so frustrating. I was pushing along the cart and the tears just started to well up in my eyes from seeing everyone just shopping and going about their lives. It got to me. I know I will be normal again, but sometimes it just seems so far away. I really want to report some sort of fun, but the last few days have just not been fun at all. I am going to try really hard to have something positive to report to everyone! In the mean time I am going to go curl up on my couch and see what tomorrow brings. I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!
This is a link to a really nice song I found that kind of sums up how I feel. It is the first song called Maybe Tonight, Maybe Tomorrow. http://www.wideawake.com/www/wa_main.html
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Take care and relish the spoiling. You need it and would do the same for your sisters. - Steph
So glad you had a nice Christmas =)
Reading how your sisters are there for you...
cleaning , bringing you things you want..etc..
brings back so many memories of what my mom and
Aunt Linda...did for my Aunt Judy who had BC...they were
there at her house daily...keeping everything in order...cleaning, cooking...you name it...anything she needed. Your sisters wouldn't have it any other way...i'm sure... You deserve to be spoiled =) Wishing you only the best in 07' Happy New Year!
Always in my thoughts and prayers....Keep praying to your sister Sharon...for strength and courage...she will come through for you and help you in your toughest times ~ she is your angel.....
Hugs..~Terri~
It's a tough time right now, but you are tougher than that Cancer. Don't ever forget that. You are a Hero!
Prayers and hugs
jackie
When I had my first blood work done following my first chemo my white cell coint was .07 (normal is between 9-14) now my DR is concened because last two times it was way to high 47,000 then finally down to 25,000...he wanted to take me off of the Nuelasta shots that I get the day following chemo and have me do the shots at home like you have to do and I told him no way jose..not gonna happen so since I only have one more round of chemo he's letting me do it my way.
Just remember too that even "tough girls' like us have a weak moment from time to time and those tears are very necessary! We've survived labor and delivery- we will survive chemo and breast cancer.........We are the Warriors in Pink!!!
Gem here. Thank you so much for taking the time to visit my journal. I saw Meg's senior pic in your previous entry....she is beautiful! :-)
I read your side bar and First thing that run to my mind was remembering my MIL had breast cancer back in 1994, she did chemo and stuff like that and now a breast cancer survivor.
After reading what you are going through, your recent comment of positive note and encouragement to my journal reminded me that life is precious to not enjoy every moment of it...that anything is possible, and to keep our eyes on the goal.
Reading this entry tells me you do have a wonderful circle of family and sisters. That was so nice and so sweet of them. (I'd be spoiled too, lol!) :-)
I will be back, Trish, and...Thank you.
Happy New Year,
Gem :-)
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