On the way home from breakfast yesterday I mentioned to Jeff that there was only one more week until chemo, and how scared I was. He said, "that's only one week away until you start getting better!" Of course I wasn't looking at it that way. I feel good. I don't feel like I have to get better. Sure I have been feeling lousy from the pain medication from the surgery but all in all I feel pretty good! I am just not looking forward to feeling lousy from chemo. Jeff also said, "I can take you losing your hair, I can take you without a breast, (which thank god I didn't have to lose), I just can't take losing you, so you have to get better." He's so sweet. Today he came out of the bathroom with a scarf on his head and said, look I'll wear one too, ears in or ears out! He is such a goofball. Earlier in the week I had modeled a scarf for him and gave him a sneak preview and asked him....ears in or out, and he told me how pretty I looked with a scarf on.
Today I went to chemo class with my mom and Sue. First they put in a video to watch. Now I know why I didn't do so good in school. While the video was going I was talking to them, and being silly. Then I would realize that I needed to pay attention, and would say..."Sue did you write that down?" (she's my secretary.) hee hee. When the video was over, the nurse came in with a folder full of information and 4 prescriptions. Take this one an hour before chemo, take this one 3 days after chemo, put this on before chemo, and take this for ANXIETY..!!!?? Huh, what? I have never been the anxious type but I think she saw me chewing my fingernails and my legs bouncing up and down and when I told her I was scared for Monday to come, she decided to write me that prescription. I told her I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin. She said, "take it." I still haven't taken it.
So now my chemo has been moved up to 11:00 on Monday. She said I should be there 3 hours. My mom has to work that evening and wants to be able to stay with me and not have to rush off. She said she is also going to spend the night that night with me! Awww I love her!
A girl at work brought me in an Angel Star Worry Stone. I thought that was so sweet. It's a clear stone with an angel in it. I am going to take it to my first chemo with me. It says "as you hold the stone in your hand, imagine the Angel's calm presence surrounding you. Imagine yourself letting go of hurts or worries." So that's what I'm going to do!
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