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Feeling sorry for myself

Ok so yesterday I had a poor me day. I cried most of the day. I cried on the phone to my mom, my sister, on the way home from work and on the way to meet my family for lunch. I am starting to realize that I am going to lose my hair. Anyone who knows me knows I have A LOT of hair! I have very thick long hair that I wrestle with every time I wash it. It takes about 40 minutes to blow dry. I have to do it in sections, clip some up blow dry that, let another section down and blow dry that. Then from there I use a straightener. Same routine. I have bitched and complained about this for years, however, last night as I was going through my ritual I was standing there staring at this poofy mess and I just couldn't take it. I lost it, right there in front of my kids. They both came into the bathroom to comfort me as I complained how awful I am going to look without hair. They both told me I would look cute. Ha cute. I don't think so. Oh, another thing...I have never noticed so many bald men in my life!

Yesterday on the way to meet my mom, Sue, Steve, and Stephanie, for lunch, every song that came on the radio made me cry. Some made me think about my dad, some made me think about Sharon, and some just made me think about my life. I can't listen to the radio lately. It depresses me.

 I met my mom at Kohl's after lunch.  I went right to the hat and scarf section because I have to face the fact that I am going to need something to cover my bald head. I have never been a hat person because I have so much hair that they are hard to fit on my head. I finally picked out a cute little baseball cap. I came home and put it on, and I have to tell you, it did look cute....WITH HAIR!!!.... I tucked all my hair up underneath and I look like a little boy. I still have to figure out what I'm going to do about this hair thing. Oakwood Hospital gave me a $200.00 coupon for a wig, so I guess I will go wig shopping. Maybe I will go back to blonde again. hee hee....

 

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Anonymous said…
Now you have thick hair and I have poker straight hair........they say after chemo it changes the dynamics of ones hair...so you my new friend might have more managable hair and I may come out curly-Q.....Im hoping for thicker and maybe some wave to mine! I start my chemo Tuesday.they say day 3 (after chemo) is the roughest..I'm just an email away! For those nights you can't sleep XANAX is a beautiful thing! lol lol lol

September 24, 2006 at 2:55 PM
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