I couldn't sleep tonight. I have too much stuff running through my mind. Just stupid stuff like, I have to clean the carpet, I have to get stamps tomorrow, I have to bring in my plants, I have to get the furnace cleaned, the dog needs a haircut. Then I started thinking about my friends and family and how great everyone has been since I was diagnosed.
I always knew I had great friends and relatives. I have received so many cards, phone calls, and e-mails from people who are concerned about me, some of whom I have not talked to in a long time. I love that I can hear from someone who I haven't talked to for a while and we can pick up right where we left off. Our lives are so busy but when it comes down to it your friends and family are always there for you when you need them.
I was at work yesterday and a boy who happens to be in a wheelchair said to me, "you look so pretty today, I wish I had a camera so I could take a picture of you." I thought that was so sweet. He said to me, "see you tomorrow." When I told him I wouldn't be there tomorrow he said, "see you Monday." Then I told him I wouldn't be there Monday either. He asked me why and I told him I had to go see the Doctor. Then he wanted to know if I was sick and I told him to ask his teacher and she would tell him. He wheeled over to his teacher, I saw him talking to her with a very concerned look. He came back over to me with his arms wide open so I leaned down and hugged him. He said, "I will say a prayer for you tonight when I get home." I thought that was so sweet. It made me realize that yes, I am going to be in for a fight, I am going to lose my hair, but I will get over this and move on. For me, this is just a bump in the road as my doctor put it, but for him, he will have a challenge for the rest of his life. For him to say he would say a prayer for me meant a lot. I am going to say a prayer for him tonight too.
good night....
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I know you start chemo in 4 days, well, I guess it's 3 days your time. I know you must be nervous. At least, I would be. I'm praying that you don't get horribly sick but the meds do their work. Fight, fight, fight! You'll beat this thing!
I'll mark you journal in my favorites and keep up with you. We are both going to be victorious! I'll be cheering you on.